Weaning yourself from someone you care about is like getting over herion. It's really hard at first. I feel like I'm going to die. Like, I have to IM him or email him. I stop myself each time. It's so hard. I don't know what to do. I feel anxious inside. Like my stomach is in knots. I don't know what to do. I don't know if the feelings I'm feeling are even valid right now. It's so hard to tell right now. I am starting to feel so bad that I could just walk around in the street naked and I swear I wouldn't know. I'm thinking about going to see a professional. I am so fidgety that I cant' concentrate on anything. I am so anxious inside that I can't stop shaking. Even listening to music won't make it go away. I just want to be able to hold him. To drug him and make him mine forever. What is wrong with me? I need help. I am scared and I don' t know what is wrong with me. Oh god, someone help me before I just start screaming and never stop. Ever. 
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