Hmm, I do use that word often. I'm starting to be on the crunch time count down clock. Life is hectic. My body is going out of control. Stress has become my constant buddy. My other constant buddy is one of those angels that sits on your shoulder - you know the angel and the devil one - well, mine is the devil. "Hey, Diana. Hmm, he looks nice doesn't he? You should have a go with that one." "Oh, look he's indie. Isn't he yummy? Go, go, go." Fuck you hormones. Maybe I don't feel like making out every two seconds. Let's just say that I acted on a spring fling yesterday. I'm not sure why. I guess because the other party was consenting. God, I don't know. It was different this time. It was such a different feeling than before. It was nice. I enjoyed it. I don't know. I did sorta think about Derek a few times for which I feel bad. I really really really really like him. He's cute. Redheaded. GOD, I am not intelligent enough for him. He would be so bored with me. Why is this? I am just too young. I don't know what to do. This summer I am gonna go out and immerse (way sp) myself in some sort of intellectual cultures. I wonder if I can find someone that is in Mesa. You know that super intellectual group of people. I could become friends and they could teach me what they know. Give me suggestions on books though I guess that a certain pretentious hippie boy could do that as welll. I need to read so many books and poetry to get caught up here. Why am I so screwed? I am going to get a vocab book and teach myself some new language. I am such a simpleton. Sorry...I just feel dumb sometimes. I'm not sure why I do now. I need to go and work on this debate. I am so screwed. I don't feel like doing work. I hate my life.

No, that was a lie. I love life! I am an awesome person and ignore this post above. Everyone has problems because I can honestly say that I am a happy and lucky individual. I will speak to you later. Bye!  
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