I have come to the conclusion that all the boys in my life have been kidnapped. There is no derek. There is no sidekick. Everyone has disappeared like Ranger Bars in the LB. Why is that? No moo in site. Derek's alert noise if you must know. Where is everyone? Where is the love? I'm dealing. I'm not even pissed. I'm just curious.

I have a date, rather semi-date on monday. It's going to be cancelled for no reason. I feel guilt. It's there. I really like derek so I wish I would stop doing this to myself. Stop making these dates with boys I don't like. Or actually, don't want to like. Basically, I know one replacement for derek and somehow I doubt I'll be going out with him. Everything seems so unclear. Everything seems so hazy. Is it muggy in here or is it just me? I just feel uncomfortable dating around now. I don't want to date around. I want to date derek. Evasiveness sucks.

As you can tell I'm not in the mood to write. Plus, my computer is updating itself and keeps making things difficult on the typing.

More later, perhaps. 
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