i think emo gets a bad rap. i think emo is like a huge support group. you listen to the music and you can feel a connection and you realize it's not just you going through it. obviously, emo is not about being deep. a lot of emo is about girls and relationships, i think because that's a HUGE part of life. just relating to people. we have to do it everyday.

i am trying to get through all this "mess" in my head. i'm taking the deep breaths and counting to ten and trying not to over analyze every single fucking situation, over and over and over. so much thinking makes you feel really insecure and anxiety ridden. i'm starting to realize that my emotions/feelings are rationalized and that i'm not being mad about petty things. that i can't dismiss something just because I'M feeling it and NOT someone else. i keep thinking that if i am mad at someone that it's not rationalized and that there is no reason i should be mad, but i've begun to see that i'm not really mad at them for that one time; it's something built up over time. it's me not taking action in the past. it's me dismissing the situation over and over and over again. it's me thinking "oh, well...i'll let it go this time." instead of just saying what i really thought. expressing yourself has to be one of the hardest things to do, even with people that you've known for years. even with people you haven't. with everyone. i am learning to spit it all out.

Jimmy Eat Wolrd song of the day: Goodbye Sky Harbor
thanks chris.

(written today. yessum.)  
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