i can't sleep, probably because i haven't really tried. i am behind in everything. EVERYTHING. i need to get outside away from this room. away from this computer. tomorrow i'm dressing up for valentine's day. i'm listening to the "christopherREMIX" list on the winamp he told me he'd shoot me if i didn't download. so yeah, i'm rocking out and all that at 3 am. i should be in bed. i should be studying. these are a bunch of moral claims, or course. look, i did study a little bit. i really like my ethics class a whole lot. i'm just not motivated to study or email or anything really. i haven't been feeling lonely, just tired. i've been visiting the basement too many times recently and a dinner of cheese and crackers can't really be that healthy, huh? that's been my dinner for the past week. it's gotten to the point where i am not exactly hungry at night anymore. that's good. i'm trying to walk more. that's my sort of exercise. it's so cold outside in boston though. bleh. i'm going to be crazy and wear a dress anyways. ok, i still can catch 5 hours of sleep if i go now....

p.s. i have my analysis tomorrow with a psychiatrist. a real one. one that can get me some drugs. hmm...i'm nervous about it because i don't think that's what i need now. i think another opinion on my troubles is always grand. grand, i say.

will you court me? 
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