i had a date last night. it was probably one of the most akward situations i have ever gotten myself into. he seemed nice enough, but isn't that always the case? first off, we were going to see a movie. fine fine. confessions of a dangerous mind. he comes way too nicely dressed. i'm turned off. bleh. i'm wearing jeans. casual date right? why the fuck can't i wear jeans? who knew he was wearing khakis and a nice sweater. gay. i hate using that word. let's try again, stupid. so apparately, he's going into the military. wow. great. no, not so great really. i totally clash on that. i think it's silly. i just don't understand it. my dad was in the military. i think its' ok for some people, but no ok for the people i date. sorry. maybe that's lame but i don't care. i really don't think highly of how my father is and maybe this has turned me off to all things military. And no, i haven't seen Black Hawk Down? ugh. so thank god we ended things early and we never have to talk again.

immediately after the date i went to NYP and got pizza and a yoohoo. i ate the pizza on the walk home. it was yummy. the yoohoo made my blood sugar go up and i acted strange. oh well.

i don't think i'm actually ready to date people. i want to and dates are fun, but it's a lot of work. dates make me feel lonely and sometimes i feel like things should move faster. faster as in relationship, not faster as in sexual...though i move fast in that department. at least, i think i do. i think perhaps i'm trying too hard. i just hate waiting.

i bought the Hipster Handbook today. i thought it would be a fun thing to read. it's pretty informative though i'm not sure if i can take the thing seriously. apparantly, indie and hipster are not the same thing anymore and indie is an outdated term. oh well. i don't really care. some of that slang is outlandish. i like deck. i like fin. that is all. alright. i'll write more. i doubt i'm sleeping tonight.

valentine's day makes me sad.



 
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