it's weird when your mother offers you a hotel for the weekend just to escape it all but than for some reason your roommates are gone for both nights of the weekend. i miss you guys. gah. i think i need a change of pace. i change of scenery. a change is in store and i am about to see it happening somehow. i can feel myself "grasping" for some sort of light at the end of the tunnel. it's there cream-colored and smooth as the velvetine rabbit. i run, arms outstreched, just for one feel of it. just one touch could change this all around. make time go backwards and instead of falling down, i am falling up. i go back in time to 20, 19, 18...and so forth until i'm back in Pennsylvania where there was never a moment of madness. there was never that feeling that i was about to just lose it. YES, there were times that i would change but PA is my home and where i was raised and i can say that most people prefer their childhoods to their adulthoods. i know i do. playing all day. not caring. TODAY i don't care for a different reason and it's mostly out of disbelief of how i could let myself slip into this mess. honestly i feel much better and MAYBE things are going to get better.

hey, i can be optimistic when i feel like it. i mean sean dack knows it. right? hahahahahaha

no, i will not write sean dack fan ficiton, that would be crossing the line. i just figure i'm on some sort of role. so i keep putting out the shout outs maybe sean will finally take a visit to my SLIMER green website. ecto cooler foreva, yo. 
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