identity

D major: sometimes i wonder if i'm better off as words on a screen or a voice on the phone. i'm myself there but it's always easier when you are just one part of yourself. i can trust myself as an untangible being but touch i cannot understand. i become vulnerable in person. a little less off balance. a little more taken aback. i am scared to feel and to really show you more than just "sayings" and "utterences." will you ever know the real me if i calculate every move? sometimes i'm afraid it will go away. and i'm so in like with you that it scares me sometimes.

But I: with you i'm more relaxed. just myself. who else do i need to be? i remember the first time i saw you in line and what an ass i was. "ugh, i wouldn't have let him in line." who knew that when you jumped that turnstile you would leap one thing farther and deeper? a simple wave brought us together. BAM. and yeah, i "eye sexed" you into my life. it was so obvious. 4 times and i've fallen. 4 times and each time a bit closer. 4 times and that's it. when i see you again will we multitask? (nudge nudge) i really want to know.

aDdition: tonight i fell in love with your voice. each thing you said made me feel so much. i hope i was satisfying. 
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