"where do you go when you're lonely? where do you go when you're blue?"

it's nights like these where i need to be held and be told, "it'll be alright, you can do it." i'm really tired and i don't know if i can put up with it much longer. i feel really alone. it's amazing how a research paper can make you feel so isolated or maybe that's just ryan doing his thang. i know if john were here he would make me laugh and just that ability alone would make me tear though this baby like no one has before. it's 2am and i don't feel like writing about animal rights or euthanisia. not to mention why do they call it that?

the act or practice of killing or permitting the death of hopelessly sick or injured individuals (as persons or domestic animals) in a relatively painless way for reasons of mercy.

the animals aren't sick! sometimes i hate people because we wouldn't have to do this and the animals wouldn't have to die for their careless acts. i'm sure there are tons of arguments against this but i'm not in the mood for an argument. i'm in a mood for a long nap and for the days to go backwards. just think that after this paper i'm done and i'm due for that nap. that long snuggle with D. i'm not sure what i'm going to do with my time after that. i think i want to curl up and never move. there's no one to say goodbye to anymore and i just feel too lazy.

why can't i get what i deserve? what's up with all my rhetorical questions, lately? 
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