i just want to die without you

i took a walk today. one of those ones that are reserved for days when your "down in the dumps" and feeling the need for heavy contemplation. also, it should be raining. but today, it was sunny and the clouds looked perfect and i overheard someone playing ryan adams out of their garage. and it was just me and "come pick me up" and eddie the dog and clouds. the clouds looked clear, a pleasant change from the overcast sludge that's been hanging over the city for the past two weeks. there were ducks and dragons and chickens and squirrels...not in the street but in the sky. and in the street were dead babies and i tugged the dog away from licking their cherubic faces. i just spent an hour out of my head. just walking. and it felt right and it felt good. excuse me, but this has happened in a long time. i don't feel in my shoes here. i think i grabbed the wrong pair on my way out of boston.

 
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