looooooooooong distance

i've started walking two miles a day. not just randomly around the neighborhood but at the track at the rec center. i had to join the rec center. get an id with a smudged digital photo. it wasn't my idea. i don't need the exercise -- the anorexia and all -- but my favorite employer at the library asked me to walk with her. she's not someone you can turn down. we have a special bond, the daughter she doesn't have.

i was hoping she wouldn't bring up religion but she did. i wish i could be comfortable with this subject. it's just not something i feel i can argue about and sound competent. i'm not. i know i don't know about it. and i want it to stay that way. i can appreciate it but i want to stay on the outside.

we talked about boston and colorado and switching colleges. a lot can be said in two miles of a looped inside track. around around around. i caught almost every word she said but the basketplayers in the gym cut out some key words and i think i answered questions she didn't ask.

i wish i hadn't signed up. it makes me exhausted. 
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