if i don't die or worse, i'm going to need a nap

i sit up like startled from the worst nightmare. there's no reason for me to be up. no one is online. there's nothing good out the window. there's no fire alarm to tend to. i can keep sleeping.

tossturntossturntossturn.

thinky.

there is no way i'm getting back to sleep. not this second. maybe in an hour or so.
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i check my email. one friendster message. from mike. i play fowl words. i masturbate. i listen to the justiny playlist. (it should be known that i'm not listening to it while masturbating). i speak to whoever is still awake. why am i still awake?
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i never have trouble falling asleep after talking to you, but you aren't around. sometimes two weeks seems like two years. 
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