"just jealous and jaded"

"you can do better," echoes in my head everytime i'd like to settle down. settle down in the sense that it doesn't feel right to just keep dating around. the dates seem so meaningless. i don't want to go beyond "just friends" with the majority of the boys i meet. i want something exclusive. someone i can give all my attention to -- relatively speaking. but instead i keep looking for "something better," even though i don't know what the better is. does better mean:

- better financial security?
- better car?
- better looks?
- better smarts?
- better personality?
- better shoes?

so i just keep wandering around looking for the better. perhaps one day i will run into someone named Better McTavish and i'll know i've found him. 
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