Monday, September 29, 2003
luck?
out of paranoia, i wake up before my alarm goes off. i already used my tardy for work, so i can't be late anymore or else i lose my job. i spend a half an hour reading the same websites on the internet till 6:45am. it occurs to me that i'd like to ask for help, so i can sleep in one day during the weekend, but i won't. i'd feel defeated and i'm much too proud to say i can't do something by myself. i'd rather be miserable than ask for help.
when i look at my watch, it's upside down. i don't bother to turn it the right side up on my wrist. too much trouble. when i grab my stuff to leave, i notice a heads up penny between my sheets. this may be an omen for the future, i don't move it.
¶ 3:58 AM
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out of paranoia, i wake up before my alarm goes off. i already used my tardy for work, so i can't be late anymore or else i lose my job. i spend a half an hour reading the same websites on the internet till 6:45am. it occurs to me that i'd like to ask for help, so i can sleep in one day during the weekend, but i won't. i'd feel defeated and i'm much too proud to say i can't do something by myself. i'd rather be miserable than ask for help.
when i look at my watch, it's upside down. i don't bother to turn it the right side up on my wrist. too much trouble. when i grab my stuff to leave, i notice a heads up penny between my sheets. this may be an omen for the future, i don't move it.
¶ 3:58 AM
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