"I just had to tell you this because I don't know what else to tell you."

i don't really feel lonely. it's not like you were filling up an empty space, you were just making my space a bit more crowded. a bit warmer. a bit hotter. and i have to admit to feeling ridiculously happy during that time. during those weeks. where all i could do was think about you in class and shake my leg with anticipation for the next time. the time we would spend making fun of old people and watching movies i should have seen ages ago but never did. the time we spent being stupid and laughing at our own jokes. the ones that no one else got but gave me belly aches and tears in the corners of my eyes.

but i have to admit that i started to feel weird that thursday. not that we were weird. but i was weird. different. changed. and that feeling hasn't gone away yet. but neither did being exceptionally happy. everyone thinks i should be upset, but when have i ever followed the crowd? 
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