i am no longer bored: new calling in life


may 2004, my old dorm room
(please take notice of ryan adams in the background)

lately, all i want to do is sit on the floor and make crafts. i have ideas for so many things. i find myself restless at night because i need to buy things at the grocery store. last night was the first night that hasn't happened. it was the first night where when i closed my eyes i felt the need to sleep. i woke up at 8am and couldn't go back to sleep.

i think i like waking up on my own without an alarm clock.

i am making mix cds at a ridiculous rate and realizing that i need to go buy cds and a new stereo.

i'm ready to let a lot of things go. one of them is old letters and old crushes. what crushes? for once, not having a crush is starting to feel really good. i'm starting to realize that i don't recognize myself anymore and that's a good thing.

exclusion from the crush clause:
i really want to make out with john dufilho of the deathray davies, even my boyfriend has a crush on him. since john is married, ryan will do. maybe i should keep these things to myself.

p.s. i have an ant bite on my foot. it itches. 
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