meet me in montauk

i decided i just couldn't go back to sleep. i started thinking while flossing, a chore i have grown to love, and this paper is haunting me. like it should. so here i am working on my paper at 4:30am in the morning. i'm simaltaneously looking up livejournal icons for eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. there are times i take boredom and run with it. this morning is one of those times.

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barbara is still missing. i think my mom and i are the only ones that seem to care that she is missing from our lives. i have accepted the fact that she has probably died somewhere, but i wish she would just come home. i miss her meow.
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i can't take my mind off of boston lately. i feel that dave and i have really grown apart lately. i think it's just the distance playing mind tricks on us, but it feels different in a way i can't explain. i really can't remember things without him, but it's hard to remember the way things were when i was last there. i know things will slowly fall into place as soon as i arrive. i'm just scared that when we kiss it'll feel different. there will be less spark.

i am obviously overanalyzing the situation. i tend to do that. 
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